Of course there are sometimes when being me just isnt all that pleasant.
Most of the time I am pretty content with myself. Although I tend to care a bit too much about what others may think and therefore tend to act kind of shy around people I dont know so well, I tend to really like who I am. Its kind of a contradiction because I really like who I am and I really want others to as well so sometimes I come off as too strong sometimes too like I am trying too hard. Its hard for me to relax around people I dont really know because im too afraid of what they may think about me. I dont think its low self-esteem.. I tend to think highly of myself and I like who I am for the most part. Im not exactly sure what it is, is there really anything wrong with wanting other people to like you too? I think not.
Now I know its impossible to please everybody, I dont try to, I just try to show them that I am indeed a good person deep down inside, in hopes they show me the same thing.
I can take things a bit too personally, but I have been working on that slowly but surely.
I am not perfect and will never be, I try to make each day better than the last one, thats all anyone can really do. I dont like how much I hold myself back though, it's a really hard habit to break. I know not everyone is going to betray my trust but it has happened quite a bit by people I never thought would do such a thing. I tend to give people the benifit of the doubt too much yet at the same time not often enough.

If that makes any sense at all I'll be shocked.

ah yes but I am still a fun loving, genuine individual. I care about people more than they realize. I will relax and open up the more Im around a person. I can be seen as shy at least at first, Im pretty sure its a defence mechanism. Although if theyre talking about something Im passionate about I'll jump right in and own the conversation. :P