with my hands open, and my eyes open, i just keep hoping that your heart opens.

i dont really know what i really want in my life. i mean, my fucking life :P i've been let many people around me down. and i dont know. im sorry. put the blame on me kay? haha. i just feel like, im lonely. lol. i need.... power. maybe like, power puff girl? or something? not funny. i need to be more tough in this life. i just dont want to think about other's stuff that can make me sad and crying. or suicide? um, have you feel like you want to do suicide? like you just wanna die? so that, everything solve? i always felt like that, actually.

but huh. God knows everything. when i die. so yeah. i feel like, im tired of this life. im tired of problems. i like and love him, somehow. hahaha. its dealing with it eh. i just dont wanna die before i find someone that i really want. like now? hahah. i just dont wanna die now, tomorrow, next week, nest month, next year. hahahah. bah ssssssssssssssssssssh! im done here.