You can only be strong for yourself. You can't expect people to be that arm for you to hold on to because that arm is going to get tired after awhile. When that person lets go of you, you fall. You fall, Hard. It hurts even more. The cuts are deeper, the scars hold on to you. But don't stay on the ground too long or wait for someone to pick you up again. You wipe those tears and you pick yourself up.


I have no clue where to start. I feel lost. That's basically it.

Well the first big thing is I'm not sure what to do with my life right now, no clue what to look toward.
I can't bring myself to do anything new or different.
I lie in bed thinking every night. Maybe I should learn to just live in the moment. My mom told me that I missed out on the present worrying about what lies ahead. No matter how good things seems, I just feel lost inside.


Right now I am trying to understand many things , but at the same time knowing and not knowing what to understand. It is so complicated because the mind which analyzes wants to cling to thorough explanations. Somehow my thoughts are pulling me in many directions at once. I cant seem to get centered, and every little thing seems to merged into a larger whole.

Sigh.... What a life.

I lie in bed thinking last night. Its one of those passing thoughts that really sticks with you. Just how well do we all know ourselves?

I think it’s a question many of us struggle with. As we try to figure out how close we are to who we actually want to be. I dont think I really know who I am yet. I came to the conclusion that all these while I am just a form of beliefs of myself.

I think it is true that most of us dont even know what we want or need. Im sure 'why is this my life?' is almost everybodys' question not just mine. They say life is a one way street, no matter how many detours you take, none of them leads back. If any of us could paint a picture of our life what would it be like?

I really dont know how to answer that question but I would definitely paint myself taking the right road. But if you were to ask me to paint the perfect moment in life I would paint myself watching the sunrise at the beach with my loved one watching birds flying across the blue sky, listening to sound of ocean waves gently crashing against the shoreline.

As I sit here picturing myself doing just that my mind races. Environment can do wonders to the mood around us really, there must be a million thoughts rushing through my mind right now. Till today I still don't understand why even our own parents dont truly know or understand the real us.

I guess no one knows Us better than we know ourselves. Its sad how we share a close connection with someone, sharing our life with them yet all of us are so oblivious to the face behind the mask. Talking about that do you ever feel you are trying to be someone you are not when you're all dressed up? Funny enough. I've always felt it is fun to dress up and get all blooming but when I'm actually at those places a large part of me felt like I'm trying to be someone I'm not. I'm just pretending its all okay..

ummmmmmmmmmmmmmm, i just wanna tell you guys that............i love him and you guys, bestest.