Im scared, I really really am, I think i'm seriously depressed and that everything out there in the world is out to get me. I dont want to talk to my Bestfriends because I dont want to stress them out
anymore than they already are plus im scared they will just laugh at me and think im crazy but then again theres a limit to
how much they can help me out. I dont know if im depressed. Maybe its just in my head but i find myself feeling really low and empty a lot of times. In a second i can go from extreme happiness to feeling
depressed over nothing or over some small little issue. I do sometimes wish for death, and get violent images of me killing myself and its really scary. Sometimes i just feel like crying for no reason at all. I want to be all alone away from people, even from my close friends but at the same time i want to be surrounded by people. Espically, him. Im insanely confused and troubled and i just want to feel better and move on.

-i miss papan. :s