i cant do this. people's expectations and just the constant drama and bullshit going on in the world. i let myself not be apart of it, i try to avoid it...because i was around it for too long. but you really can never get away from it. dont tell me that i stress too much, or that im too hard on myself or i grew up too quickly or too kind hearted. it shouldnt be like that. let me be me. let me deal with it. if you want to be there for me, you will. dont go out snd make me feel guilty for not calling or messaging, when half of the things you did, envolved me to feel like this. i try so hard to fix everything. but ah, hard to talk these days! not only friend, family. just seems to be evrything. you can never please everyone, you do something. one person is bothered by it, you do another and its the same thing, every single time. i want out of this cicle. i've been beaten down time and time. people will dissapoint me even the one who i least expect it from. it shouldnt be this way. act cool hurt me!