It's hard to answer the question "what's wrong" when nothings right. I don't necessarily want to be happy. I just want to stop feeling miserable. You start life with a clean slate. Then you begin to make your mark. You face decisions, make choices. You keep moving forward. But sooner or later there comes a time where you look back over where you have been and wonder who you really are. im facing it now. It's like I realized that way down inside, I've always been lonely for something. But I don't know what for. It's like everybody in the world want's something. Only they never really know exactly what it is - they just keep finding out what it's not. You know how, when you turn off the TV or you come out of some concert, and everything just feels empty? Like you thought that would be what you wanted, and then it wasn't? There's no excuse for the need to take your own life away, everyone passes through some rough obstacles if life, just face them as they come along, there's always a way to overcome those obstacles, and learn from your experiences. I just wish I could roll back the clocks to when things were the same. then we were all just a bunch of crazy teenagers looking for a wild time. But now, thing aren't the same. Each of us have gone our different ways. We change, people change, things just change, and we aren't those crazy teenagers looking for a wild time anymore. We're teenagers looking for a person to love and a person to hug when we're in need. well, the conclusion is i changed. to be a better person. perhaps, im a bad girl before thats why someone leaving me. like, ok! haha. apa saja kan tu. well, i changed. and now ive been busy with working and try not to think about the sadness. what sadness? haha. apa apa apa? nadalah (: aku ok. I used to have many faults, not I have only two - everything I say and everything I do...




I certainly didn't tell anyone. I didn't advertise that I was doing this and that. aku simpan sajeeeeeeeeeee. bah sudah lah, i tidur now. good bye.